Monday, February 7, 2011

I'm really sorry again =(


I remembered last time I used to say this to any newly married couple friends who were expecting their 1st baby “Ko gunakan sebaik-baiknya masa ko mengandung anak pertama ni. Kau akan dilayan bak permaisuri etc.” When I said that, I really meant it because I had experienced it when I was carrying Aimee last time. I feel so happy at that time. I rarely feel sad. I don’t know whether it is because of the 1st class treatment that my hubby gave me, or is it because of the good hormone/good mood that I get due to my pregnancy at that time.

And back to the advice that I’ve given to my friends, now I myself found it is so true! I don’t know why, when I first got to know that I was pregnant, I wasn’t as happy as when I got to know that I’m carrying my 1st baby. 1st, it was because of some people who sounds like don’t like that we are expecting our 2nd baby. They sound like we were too early to have a 2nd baby. As a woman who already pregnant, what will you feel if people say that to you? Of course you will feel upset right? Me to at that time feel so guilty and feel like am I burden anybody for expecting my 2nd child? Is true that I shouldn’t expect to have my 2nd baby at this time of point? Lot of things bugs my head at my early pregnancy. I’m so down and don’t feel like seeing people. To make things worst, I had all these pregnancy sickness that is soooo bad which makes me so unhealthy all the times. Due to that, I’m not so into doing my normal housework, I can’t even drive myself to office and have to burden hubby to send and fetch me from office, I also have to burden him to send me to clinic for every month check up, he also need to be burden for taking care of our Aimee alone, and the list of burdens that I had given him will go on and on and will never ending for how long.

You know, when you feel like burdening your other half, you for sure will ask him whether he’s ok with the current situation, and he as your other half, for sure will say “Takpe, abang faham” or “Janganlah risau apa-apa, takde apa yang tak ok” or “Janganlah fikir yang bukan” or any other consoling words that we ourself don’t know whether they realy meant it or just to sooth you so that you wont be unhappy.

Carrying my 2nd baby, I admit that I was super duper sensitive that sometimes I myself feel like I might be getting other people’s nerve for anything that I did. And I don’t know why, I seriously not so happy compared to my 1st pregnancy. I was so so sad that sometimes I feel like crying in my bathroom. I feel like I am a burden to all the people around me, my other half, my family, my friends and everybody that I know. For all people around me, I am so sorry for burdening you all… I am just really didn’t meant to do that to you all… I’m really sorry =(


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::EIDA:: on February 7, 2011 at 9:03 PM said...

Kak misah jgn la gini.. sedih2..
Dyh org plg gembira bila tau sume org yg dyh kenal pregnant !! termsuk kak misah...
Sbb ? dyh teringin sgt nk pregnant... Pregnant dlm ms yg tidak diingini bukan slh kak misah...Itu rezeki dr ALLAH... sume org akan phm... yg tak phm tu bukan org.. hehhehe~

ninieZUERYANNIE on February 8, 2011 at 9:46 AM said...

alaaalalalalalaaa.. jgn la sedey wahai mamaGlam.. nti x glam.. ha, x mo, x mo, x mo.. nak glam kan..

xpela.. anggap jela sumer tuh perasaan je.. mungkin dsbbkan ke-x-selesaan sickness tuh yg dh effect mood/feel seharian..

ktorg sume sgt2 happy tau bile dgr pregnant same2 nih.. tu sume rezeki masing2.. cepat ke, lambat ke, sumer dah tertulis.. setiap ape yg berlaku ada hikmahnya.. kehidupan kita x sama ngan org lain..

nak i bg ceramah pjg lebar lagi ke? udah2 le ngan tazkirah arini k.. insyaAllah kite jumpa di hari & waktu yg lain.. akhir kata, selamat beramal..

MuzamiL on February 8, 2011 at 9:55 AM said...

anak tu rezeki dari Allah... tak perlu mama pikirkan... kita patut bersyukur dengan ape yang kita ada... ayah syg mama...

mama2iman on February 8, 2011 at 10:58 AM said...

dun worry aweng....aku dah lalui sebelum ni...x yah fikirkan apa yg org ckp...yg penting ko kene get ready mentally & fizikal....jgn tension2 sbb org lain....yg paling best....nnt anak2 ko dah besar sket....ko akan rasa betapa bertuahnye ada anak2 yg kecik2 rapat.....senang...penah sekali je....percayalah!! rezeki tu dr allah...bukan ke rezeki itu yg kita tunggu2 satu ketika dulu....so be strong ok :)btw congrats both of u!

Anatel Ameen on February 9, 2011 at 12:36 AM said...

Alolo ciannya anak sedara Mak Ana sorang ni...pembawaan baby ni...

Jangan fikir yang bukan2, jangan terlalu berfikir perkara yang memang dah ditakdirkan. Apa yang Allah takdirkan, adalah hadiah, jangan dipersoalkan. Bersyukur.

Next time when you feel this way, try to be in my shoes. Cuba rasa apa yang Mak Ana rasa...menanti tanda-tanda untuk memperoleh cahaya mata yang pertama. Menanti tanda-tanda yang tak kunjung tiba.

How you feel, will affect on your baby. Kalau Misha rasa membebankan yang lain, ketahuilah pahala percuma yang Misha cuba lorongkan buat mereka yang sanggup memikul beban ini. Take care tau...x mo sedey2 lagi.

mama glam on February 14, 2011 at 3:32 PM said...

Thanks sume for ur caring and loving... LOve u all! Muahhhhh!

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